Saturday, February 19, 2011
black hole
Its kyle time now. Hi how are you all doing. People always ask me how I'm doing. Don't ask me any more because I'm going to tell you right now. So think of a black hole. Now put it in your heart, now make that black hole 1000 times bigger. Not even close to what I feel. So like Alexis(my annoying sister) I had a dream. Its rather short though. One day I was making bread. I looked over and saw my dad. Kept making bread. Then about five minutes later I thought wait what? I looked back and he wasn't there. I thought crud, I'm stupid. well that's the dream, I know its short but it brought comfort. Sometimes I think I'm the only mature one in the house. (That was just to day). Mom and Alexis are crying there heads off and I have to comfort them. Yet sometimes its the other way around but who cares. so by the way just to tell you guys i started taekwondo with my second cousin Tara who teaches the class. now back to that black hole.you know if you can see a black hole life as you know it is over? Well it feels like I just saw that black hole billions of miles away. it feels like life as you know it is over. but yet, still I'm here. It feels like I'm slowly being sucked in to the black hole very slowly. But at the last second I know every thing will be OK. That no matter what I have family and what ever happens I always will. well that's it fore me. See ya all later, Kyle
Dad and Dreams
Hey everybody, it's Alexis this time. This is the first time posting for me, so be nice...
Last night I had a dream. It was in two parts, and the first part went like this:
I was eating at a picnic table on a beach. When I woke up I realized it was Sunapee Beach, New Hampshire. Where I was eating, I could see another picnic table just in front of me, set up kind of like tables in a cafeteria. I don't remember who I was eating with, but at the table in front of me I could see my friends from New Hampshire, but they were all little kids. They were eating, laughing, and talking together. Again, I don't know why, but for some reason I couldn't go eat with them. I remember I started crying, even in my dream. That's pretty unusual for me (actually, it's pretty unusual that I remember my dreams at all, but that's besides the point). Now the second part of my dream:
I just got home from summer camp, and I asked what we had for dinner, looking in the fridge d as I asked. Dad answered me from the living room that he had just made some soybeans tacos and left extras for me. I didn't even realize until I woke up that it was so out of place that Dad had made the tacos or that he was still with us in our plain site. That's what I remember from my dream. What I've gathered from this dream is that:
1) I miss New Hampshire (Sunapee Beach, I guess).
2) I miss my friends from New Hampshire.
3) I miss my Dad.
4) Kyle's new healthy food diet is affecting me.
I told Mom and Kyle about this, and being the big cry babies that we are...well, you know what came next. We didn't just cry: we BAWLED. It was a tough morning. So how did we try and fix it? Play some Journey. BIG MISTAKE! That got us crying even MORE! But then we played some other 80's rock, and it was just fine. For the moment. What an eventful morning...the flip side is we DID get a bacon breakfast and tomorrow night we're having REAL tacos, no soybeans.
That was the temporary comfort. The lasting and more assuring comfort is:
1) We'll be able to visit New Hampshire
2) We'll be able to visit our friends/family/ward in New Hampshire
3) We are sealed as a family for eternity, and
4) I never have to (and never WILL) eat soybean tacos in my life.
Obviously #3 is the most comforting and most important truth: we are sealed together for eternity. We're stuck with each other, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even though I have my down days were I just miss Dad and all I want to do is cry to my pillow, it's okay--Dad always said tough people cry, so that makes us buff. Although sometimes I feel like crying and just breaking down, I know that doesn't really do anything productive. I know that I'm only away from Dad for a moment. I'm only upset because I miss him right now. Dani also said once that this was his fault for being such a great Dad. If he were a little lousy once in a while this wouldn't be so hard! So I want to say thanks Dad, for being such a great Dad, and making it hard to be away from you for now. Because it will be so sweet when we can be with you again, face-to-face. So for right now, we have to "Be of good courage, and do it." (Ezra 10:4). We have to be of good courage and just do it: remember that Dad isn't far, we're sealed to him forever, and our Savior will guide us through these tough times.
Long story short: we love Dad, and we miss him. But we'll be with him again soon.
Last night I had a dream. It was in two parts, and the first part went like this:
I was eating at a picnic table on a beach. When I woke up I realized it was Sunapee Beach, New Hampshire. Where I was eating, I could see another picnic table just in front of me, set up kind of like tables in a cafeteria. I don't remember who I was eating with, but at the table in front of me I could see my friends from New Hampshire, but they were all little kids. They were eating, laughing, and talking together. Again, I don't know why, but for some reason I couldn't go eat with them. I remember I started crying, even in my dream. That's pretty unusual for me (actually, it's pretty unusual that I remember my dreams at all, but that's besides the point). Now the second part of my dream:
I just got home from summer camp, and I asked what we had for dinner, looking in the fridge d as I asked. Dad answered me from the living room that he had just made some soybeans tacos and left extras for me. I didn't even realize until I woke up that it was so out of place that Dad had made the tacos or that he was still with us in our plain site. That's what I remember from my dream. What I've gathered from this dream is that:
1) I miss New Hampshire (Sunapee Beach, I guess).
2) I miss my friends from New Hampshire.
3) I miss my Dad.
4) Kyle's new healthy food diet is affecting me.
I told Mom and Kyle about this, and being the big cry babies that we are...well, you know what came next. We didn't just cry: we BAWLED. It was a tough morning. So how did we try and fix it? Play some Journey. BIG MISTAKE! That got us crying even MORE! But then we played some other 80's rock, and it was just fine. For the moment. What an eventful morning...the flip side is we DID get a bacon breakfast and tomorrow night we're having REAL tacos, no soybeans.
That was the temporary comfort. The lasting and more assuring comfort is:
1) We'll be able to visit New Hampshire
2) We'll be able to visit our friends/family/ward in New Hampshire
3) We are sealed as a family for eternity, and
4) I never have to (and never WILL) eat soybean tacos in my life.
Obviously #3 is the most comforting and most important truth: we are sealed together for eternity. We're stuck with each other, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even though I have my down days were I just miss Dad and all I want to do is cry to my pillow, it's okay--Dad always said tough people cry, so that makes us buff. Although sometimes I feel like crying and just breaking down, I know that doesn't really do anything productive. I know that I'm only away from Dad for a moment. I'm only upset because I miss him right now. Dani also said once that this was his fault for being such a great Dad. If he were a little lousy once in a while this wouldn't be so hard! So I want to say thanks Dad, for being such a great Dad, and making it hard to be away from you for now. Because it will be so sweet when we can be with you again, face-to-face. So for right now, we have to "Be of good courage, and do it." (Ezra 10:4). We have to be of good courage and just do it: remember that Dad isn't far, we're sealed to him forever, and our Savior will guide us through these tough times.
Long story short: we love Dad, and we miss him. But we'll be with him again soon.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Egypt
While the world holds its collective breath, waiting to see how this very fluid situation continues to unfold, I add my own thoughts and prayers to the many, many around the globe.
The mood in the US seems to be 'cautious optimism.' I add my prayers for both our president and the secretary of state that all of their skill and resources may come to bear. May I ask that no matter what we feel towards the administration, we give them a break and let them do their jobs? This is NOT in their control, but they can and are working very hard to have a positive impact on what is going on.
One of the bright spots in Egypt has been the restraint shown by the military thus far. It is widely reported that the Egyptian military has very good relations with the US, and I am sure that both Pres. Obama and Sec. Clinton are using that to the greatest good they can. Let us hope to keep them in our corner, and let them know that we are in their corner. The people of Egypt have demanded democracy. Let us hope they get it, and as those in power now, the military, are a secular organization, perhaps a truly democratic society may take root. Surely it won't be smooth, as all children stumble as they learn to walk, so will a new democracy stumble as it learns to function.
On a side note, it has been fun to watch Fox News defend President Obama and Secretary Clinton from criticism. By the way, it is NOT the first time I have seen this, and not just in this situation. I don't expect to hear Sean Hannity defend him, but then again, I don't listen to him! Let's remember that this is Egypt's baby, and we should not expect our leaders to determine the outcome. It is not ours to determine. But to the extent that we can help a smooth transition occur, women's rights be honored, and democracy prevail, I say we lend our influence to those ends in any way possible. Viva la Revolution.
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